Five Star Challenge: Day 3

7 May

Well, now that the hard parts are over, moving onto the next day of the challenge with:

Five Things I Am Grateful For:

  1. Technology: This seems almost too obvious. Technology plays such a major role in my life: social networking sites, e-mail, blogs and blogging, medical advances, video games, information technology and the internet. It’s so amazing to be able to answer random questions quickly, search and purchase almost anything online, and to stay in touch with my friends across the world.
  2. My Husband: Aside from his just being a generally awesome person, he also provides a lot of economic support in our relationship and has always been supportive of me trying to find my way. It is a blessing to have the flexibility to not work 9-5 if needed. (Incidentally, he doesn’t keep a normal 9-5 schedule either, so when I *am* doing a 9-5 job, it can be somewhat stressful when our schedules don’t align).
  3. Friends and Family: I am happy to have such a wide variety of friends who are interested in so many different things. Keeping up with them keeps my life diverse and interesting. It is also such a wonderful thing to have friends and family that are so supportive of me and always offer a soft spot to land when the going gets tough.
  4. Ayn Rand/Objectivism/ARI/etc: My life has been so enriched by learning more about the philosophy of Objectivism. My approach to daily problems and events has become more positive, I have met many wonderful people who share my views of the world (and some that don’t, but that’s ok!). It helps me to think about issues more clearly and bolsters my ability to see the world as a benevolent, knowable place. I look forward to OCON every summer – without it, I probably would not have met my wonderful husband, not to mention many other friends I am privileged to know.
  5. My home: I’m not so much talking about the physical location that is my current home, but the pieces that make it “a home”. It’s a joy to come home to a comfortable, safe place with a loving husband and two doting cats. I enjoy the feeling of peace and contentment that our little slice of the planet helps to create. It is a culmination of the people, pets, furniture, artwork, and other material and non-material trappings located within it. It is a great thing to have helped to create this place for my husband and myself, and I consider myself fortunate to always have a peaceful place in which to retreat from the world – or to invite my world into.

Five Star Challenge: Day 2

6 May

(For the set up for this challenge, go here.)

This one is going to be difficult for me. I often feel like I am at fighting with my body as my immune system declared war on my thyroid several years ago and staying ahead of the damage can be difficult and frustrating. I often need to reorient myself to accepting and appreciating the things my body can do in order to keep from getting too frustrated when it isn’t doing other things I would like it to do.

Five Things My Body Can Do

  1. My body makes my husband and I happy. I think you all get my drift. ‘nuff said.
  2. I can roller-skate. This is a silly one on the surface, but I really enjoy roller-skating and wish I did it more often. (I don’t go as often as I’d like as the music during “adult nights” is kinda crappy, and I don’t really have any skating buddies to share in the fun.) I own my own skates so that I can go when the mood strikes and enjoy the wind on my face and that feeling of flying.
  3. My body can create and enjoy glorious food. I am not a chef extraordinaire, but I know my way around a kitchen and have quite a few mastered recipes under my belt. I have a number of go-to dishes to impress, and I have a long list of quick, yummy meals I can make after coming home from work. I really enjoy food and the feeling of being satiated. Enjoying good meals is a great pleasure in life, and I am always happy to indulge!
  4. My body can make beautiful music. My voice is especially adept at singing and covers a wide range as well. It can be strong, powerful, and loud – or soft and sweeter. It is incredibly agile. My hands can play piano well enough to offer some sort of accompaniment to the singing. It’s lovely to always have music wherever you go.
  5. My body can create worlds. When I see a finished set I have designed and helped to build and paint, it truly feels like you have created your own small little world for these characters to live in and audiences to be transported to. That is a truly awesome power.

Five Star Challenge

5 May

A few blogs I read (note: those are 4 separate links) have been participating in the 5 Star Challenge. I have decided to jump on the bandwagon as well as I’ve been a little down lately. (I believe due to my thyroid getting cranky again.)
For this challenge, the rules are to write 5 posts on the following:

  • Five things you love about yourself.
  • Five things your body can do.
  • Five things you’re grateful for.
  • Five things that make you happy you’re alive.
  • Five people (or pets) who you love.

So, I will start today with

Five Things I Love About Myself

Incidentally, I think today and tomorrow will be the hardest list for me to populate. Already, I’m getting stuck for 4 and 5…

  1. I am a good singer. I love singing – even if it is only karaoke. I have a good voice, but I really enjoy interpreting songs and focusing on communicating the story or theme. The interpretation is what separates the greats from the everyday singers.
  2. I feel things very deeply. I am a rational person and don’t enjoy a lot of drama in my life, but I do appreciate that I experience life very passionately. Of course, while this means I enjoy strong waves of happiness and love, I also get very bothered  by some things I probably shouldn’t allow to upset me. All in all, however, I would rather be able to experience my emotions this way than to be stoic.
  3. I am smart. This is one I don’t know if I’ll ever believe in my bones, but I know it is true. I am not sure why I can’t seem to accept this, but I am working on it. I am very good at creative and critical thinking and can break down problems into conquerable pieces. I can keep up with politics and current events, and I yell at news articles which make absurd claims based on seriously flawed studies more often than I care to admit. I enjoy analyzing– especially in the realms of films and books. I seem to pick up new processes and skills quickly and am often sought after by friends to collaborate in various activities. In an overall sense, I enjoy thinking and having an active mind, which I think is a great virtue.
  4. I am a Renaissance Woman. I have a wide variety of skills and a broad base of knowledge. While this doesn’t always translate to excelling in all of those skills or being the most knowledgeable, it allows me to do many things without getting too burnt out in one area and I can converse well with many different types of people. Some of my skills/interests: singing, piano, set design, scenic art, light construction, directing for the stage, project management, cross stitching, origami, drawing and painting, sewing, writing, teaching, computer skills, video games, psychology, philosophy, politics, theater (especially music theater), movies, books, puzzles, art, knitting, crochet, chainmail and other jewelry, cooking, baking, and so on.
  5. I make pretty things. This somewhat piggybacks on the last one, but it’s a little more specific. I have a variety of hobbies that are centered around making pretty things. I enjoy making new cross stitch patterns and sewing bags, clothing, and home décor items. I also enjoy baking (though I do it sparingly) – especially when I can make cute things such as Cake Pops. Embellishing is also a good skill – I made my kindle case prettier and more individualized by sewing on a piece of blue dupioni silk. I have made an elaborate pirate costume with a lush velvet coat as well as 3 corsets. I enjoy having the ability to make something unique and pretty at a moment’s notice.

Stay tuned tomorrow for: Five Things My Body Can Do. (rawr!)

The Birth Certificate Distraction

28 Apr

Preface: I do not like and often strongly disagree with President Obama. Most of you know this, and I know I have an equal amount of acquaintances who love him and revile him. This is mostly written to those who do not agree with his principles and policies and are “interested” in the recent questions surrounding his release of the long form birth certificate that has been requested since 2007.

Normally, I don’t spend much time writing on political topics here, but this has been so frustrating to me the past two days that I felt it necessary two write this.

Until recently, “Birthers” have been relegated to conspiracy theorists, where they rightfully belong. Thanks in part to Donald Trump (who seems to be competing with Sarah Palin for the presidential nomination of the Idiot’s Club), the question of Obama’s nationality has resurfaced in popular discourse. In response, Obama released the long form of his birth certificate, hoping to quell these rumors once and for all.

However, conspiracy theorists will always find an exception, even when you show them exactly what they are clamoring to see. It’s a fruitless exercise to try and appease them.

True to fashion, they are now up in arms about supposed layering one can see if the originally released document is opened in certain programs. (The document has now been updated so that these layers are flattened, prompting even more wailing). This has many people – including some I regard as fairly intelligent and reasonably grounded – wondering if maybe there was some tampering with the document. Even if they concede to not knowing the answer to this, they then raise the question of “Why release it now?”

I don’t presume to know the president’s mind – nor would I really want to. However, the simple explanation is most likely, and that is: everyone is talking about it again, and he hoped this would close the case. After all, he’s giving them exactly what they asked for.

In any event, all of this speculation is utterly irrelevant, and I am baffled as to why anyone thinks this issue is worth pursuing.

I think it is damn near impossible anyone will come forward with any significant proof that Obama is not an American. If this were the case, I really believe it would have been found by now. So it is not likely that any of this information can be used to oust the President or reverse his policies.

While we all squabble away over Illustrator, layers, flashes of green backgrounds behind some text in the document, and the timing of this document release two things happen:

  • We come across as conspiracy theorists and seriously jeopardize any credibility we may have.
  • Obama’s principles and policies continue to make headway.

I see it as a much more valuable use of everyone’s time if we keep to opposing Obama on his ideas, as that is where any real headway is going to be made. Even if he were ousted on account of faulty documentation, it is just as likely that he would become a martyr as a disgrace. I can hear his supporters now: “It shouldn’t matter where he was born – his ideas were good!”

That is what we need to fight. Obama is a man, and men come and go. Proving that this president is not an American citizen absolutely will not disprove his ideology and will not stop the policies derived from it from continuing to erode our freedoms. Getting distracted over petty bureaucratic “what if’s” only wastes the time, energy, and resources that are sorely needed to fight the real threats to our individual rights.

Joss Whedon

8 Apr

firefly

I enjoyed Firefly. Buffy and Dr. Horrible were mostly fun. Dollhouse sucked. I refuse to watch Angel after having been told how it ends.

Generally speaking, I enjoy Joss Whedon’s shows. He is a talented writer, but he can also be brutal.

I wanted to write a full post about this, but then I saw this comment posted by my husband on Facebook, as realized it says all I really wanted to:

“Joss Whedon is masterful at creating characters you care about; I don’t know if any do it better. He also believes that truly awful things will randomly happen to people [malevolent universe premise] and always does that to the characters that he expertly made you care about. Firefly’s the best because it was stopped before he could do that [notice that he did do it in the movie Serenity]. I don’t plan on watching anything else he writes because I don’t care to be made to care for characters and watch them have awful, undeserved things happen to them.

“Dollhouse was awful because the lead actress was not up to the acting required to make you care about a character that had no personality to care about [the premise made this a very difficult thing to pull off for anyone], and then, when the show finally started showing who “Echo” was before her personality was wiped out, she was extremely unlikable.

“Dr. Horrible was pretty enjoyable, but was marred by Penny [?] being a complete non-person; the only reason you care about her is because Dr. Horrible does. NPH was very good in it, and I think Felicia Day did a good attempt at a character who seemed to be written as “she is selfless, pretty and Dr. Horrible likes her”, but had nothing to work with.”

That said, I still love Firefly – enough to make the lovely needlepoint pictured above.

Oscar Night and AMC’s Best Picture Showcase

28 Feb

For the third consecutive year, I attended AMC’s Best Picture Showcase at their theater in Woodinville, WA. This is an indulgent movie marathon that I look forward to attending each year. For $60, I get to see all 10 Best Picture nominees (spread over two Saturdays), and you receive posters, gift cards for concessions (this year – 2 $10 gift cards – one for each Saturday), and a really great movie-going experience.

As with every year, there were films I didn’t care for and ones I love. Here are some brief comments on this year’s nominees.

Toy Story 3: This was the second time I saw this film, and it didn’t hold up as well. Spanish-mode Buzz is still wonderfully hilarious, but the last scene felt really emotionally manipulative. It didn’t seem as impactful as the music and slow motion made it out to be. I enjoyed “How to Train Your Dragon” so much more.

127 Hours: This wasn’t nearly as hard to watch as expected. It was also a lot more dull than expected. Just kinda “meh” all-around for me. Now, I think the actual events are very extraordinary and compelling, but the film seemed slow and not as focused as I would have expected from Danny Boyle.

The Kids Are All Right: I enjoyed this one, but didn’t think it was really Best Picture material. What I loved was the portrayal of marriage. I felt it was optimistic, benevolent, but not so much that it glossed over some of the harder aspects of being with the same person for so long. I felt happy at the end, and that always makes me…well…happy!

True Grit: After last year’s “A Serious Man”, I was happy to see the Coens go back to something a little closer to their earlier style. I enjoy their tongue-in-cheek dialogue, and am learning that I enjoy the general Western feel – southern testosterone can be fun. I felt Hailee did a good job in her role, but didn’t think it was a hugely difficult one. Enjoyable, but not particularly extraordinary.

The Fighter: This was my favorite film of Day 1. My first reaction was actually more negative, but then I thought a little more about the themes and really liked the emphasis on the main character asserting his independence and breaking out from being a follower in this sea of strong personalities. Christian Bale did an excellent job with a role that required a lot of change and nuance – but I’ve been in love with him since I was 9, so I’m a little biased.

Winter’s Bone: What a HORRIBLE way to start a Saturday morning – thank you AMC programmers! Thinking back on the movie, the story was good and some of the performances were excellent. However, I can’t stand the reverence for tribal communities where family and hierarchy rule all – even to the detriment of the group. Also, the characters are located in the US. We have numerous social programs that exist solely to help in these types of situations and I have little sympathy for people to proud or to bound by seemingly random tribal laws or traditions to help themselves. Meh.

Black Swan: BAD. ASS. Visually stunning. Quite the rollercoaster. Enjoyed every second.

Inception: I enjoy this movie, and prefer to think he is not dreaming. I also highly recommend the Rifftrax. This felt like a “throw the popular movie into the nominee list”, but I especially thought the sound and sets were amazing.

The Social Network: This was a major disappointment. I had expected not to like the sneering theme, but I was unprepared for how bad the film actually was – and I mean just technically bad. Most characters were horribly two-dimensional, the portrayal of women was just awful, and the whole world seemed implausible and unrealistic. Classic Hollywood-ization of college life ran rampant. The movie seems to think the only motivations any human male can have are sex, money, or revenge. everyone was reactionary, which would make for some crappy entrepreneurs if that were actually the case. the whole film just seems to completely not understand people whatsoever. Blech.

The King’s Speech: This was my favorite film by far. I would put Black Swan at second and The Fighter, a close third. The story of this man working to overcome his stammer, and discovering what greatness lies within him in the process was very powerful. there was a lot in this movie that resonated with me on a personal level, and I found it inspiring and very uplifting.

The Oscars were kinda “meh” this year. Fashion was good, for the most part. Winners were predictable, but that was ok. I was thrilled for Christian Bale, Alice in Wonderland, Colin Firth, and The King’s Speech’s wins.

I went to a great Oscar party and got to get dolled up in red carpet style as well as making some adorable Popcorn Bag Cake Pops. MMmmm…

cakepop cakepops

And now, I’m pooped. G’night Tinseltown!

My Crafts Round Up

11 Feb

Contoller Ornaments

7 Feb

Ahh! So adorable – do want for our geeky tree next year!

Found via CraftGawker.

My LASIK Experience: Part 2

28 Jan

For the first 24 hours after LASIK, I was advised to sleep as much of it away as possible as you’re supposed to keep your eyes closed. For the most part, that is what I did.

The worst short-lived aspect of the surgery was maybe the hour before I fell asleep. The ride home was probably a little over 30 minutes. During that time, the anesthetic eyedrops slowly wear off. The sensation wasn’t unbearable, but it was REALLY uncomfortable. My eyes are watering up right now thinking about it. It was similar to the feeling when you’re cutting potent onions, but much more intense. Once the feeling started, I probably couldn’t have opened my eyes if I wanted to.

As you can imagine, this made it somewhat difficult to get to sleep. But eventually I did and the worst was behind me.

The day after the surgery, Jeremy drove me back to the doctor for my follow up appointment. This is also the appointment when I am cleared to drive on my own. Things were still a bit foggy – much like having a bit of gunk in your eyes – but I could see more sharply than I had in ages. I tested 20/15 that first day.

The worst long-term aspect of the recovery was the night shield. I hate having to sleep with crap attached to my face. I once had to use a CPAP machine and it was not a good experience. I had to wear the glasses for a week to prevent my from subconsciously rubbing my eyes in my sleep or having them rubbed by my pillow. Obviously, eye-rubbing is bad in the first week as the flap needs to completely heal.

The glasses weren’t too elaborate. Basically a very smoothly molded sheet of plastic with foam edging to keep it from being too uncomfortable. In all honesty, it wasn’t that bad except that I just really hate sleeping with something attached to my face. I sleep on my side and it’s hard to position it so that my pillow puts just the right direction of pressure so as not to move it, but also not to completely embed the thing into my skin.

The post-op eye drop schedule lasted a little over a week and was very simple. I’m at a point where I can use moisturizing drops if my eyes feel dry, but I’m not on a schedule any longer. None of the drops stung or felt uncomfortable. One kind tasted a little bad if it dripped to the back of your throat but that is all.

At my week follow-up, I tested 20/20, but I wasn’t tested any farther. At the one month mark, I tested 20/15 again. I had halos around lights at night at first, but those are completely gone now.

It is truly incredible to think about. This surgery and its success is truly a modern marvel and I cannot begin to express how much respect I have for the people who made it possible. It is amazing to be in this process of unlearning the habits of wearing glasses and contacts. It’s something that is very difficult for me to put into words, but it’s just nice to have one less thing to think or worry about in my daily routine, as well as not having to worry about reordering contacts, updating glasses, what to bring when traveling, etc.

All in all, it was a risk that really paid off and I am so happy to have had LASIK surgery. Yay, good vision!

My LASIK Experience: Part 1

27 Jan

I have been considering LASIK for years.

I have worn glasses or contacts for a long time – since before I was 10. While not a horrible inconvenience, they’re not negligible accessories. It is a pain in the butt to put on glasses in the middle of the night or early morning in order to see the alarm clock, walk down the hall to the bathroom, or look out the window to check the weather before getting out of bed on a predicted snow day. Contacts can be equally annoying – can’t leave them in too long, so if I stayed up late, my eyes would get really dry; cleaning, prep, ordering, expense.

I was always worried that I’d be one of those people who had the bad LASIK experience – halos at night, light sensitivity, overly dry eyes. But I have heard more and more success stories over the years that tempted me. So, I finally went to a local practice and checked to see if I was a candidate.

During the initial visit, I made a point to ask what my vision was. I knew my glasses were thick and I knew my contact prescription levels, but I didn’t know what my vision ratio was (20/400? Dunno!). I wanted to be one of those people who could throw out the classic success numbers: “I was 20/400 and the next day I was seeing 20/15!”

Well, I don’t have a number. While it makes the success story longer to tell, it does make it more dramatic. I was told that I don’t have a number because the big “E” is unreadable to me without my glasses or contacts. I was, what they called, at the “counting fingers” level. When they had me look into their little eye mapping machine, the tech looked at the results and said, “Wow! Your vision is really bad – you’re going to love LASIK!” Not the greatest bedside manner, but a good saleswoman.

The other main prerequisite was cornea thickness. Mine are apparently quite thick, so, not only was LASIK with any of the various procedural options a viable choice, but I was even set if I ever needed an “adjustment” after the initial surgery.

Once deciding to go through with the surgery, I had two options regarding the surgery: blade vs bladeless, conventional vs. custom.

Blade vs. Bladeless is exactly what it sounds like. During the surgery, a flap is cut in the cornea. Traditionally, this was done using a blade. (For those with strong constitutions, you can view the general LASIK procedure in this “How It’s Made” video: http://www.youtube.com/watch?gl=HK&hl=zh-TW&v=0V4I2xzwGd4). More recently, there has been an option to use a laser to cut the flap. The major advantages of this are the flap can be cut thinner, using less of the cornea, and, should anything happen mid-cut, the process can be restarted where it left off. If the mechanism detects any movement, the blade or laser will automatically and quickly back out. With a blade, the patient needs to go home and heal before continuing as the process needs to restart. The laser can continue the process, and does not need the fresh restart. The downside is that the laser process can cause more inflammation during the healing process. I went with the laser.

Conventional vs. Custom is just the type of laser – how precise it is. Basically conventional LASIK has sensitivity on the same scale as glasses or contact prescriptions. Custom LASIK is mapped to you eye and can provide more precise results.

On the day of the surgery, Jeremy and I went to the clinic and shortly after arriving, I was talked through the procedure again and then given a couple of valium to ease any nervousness I might be having. I also got my post-op kit with things like eyedrops and an eye shield.

I had about 30 minutes of down time – letting the valium kick in mostly. Once in the surgical suite, I’d say the process took less than 10 minutes.

The surgery was done one eye at a time. Anesthetic drops where administered to both eyes. The assistants were very comforting, noting that I didn’t flinch at the drops (they say contact wearers tend to do better with those), and that I’d be great during the surgery. The eye that wasn’t being worked on was taped shut. The other eye was taped open – at least I think it was tape. It felt like tape – though many surgery descriptions mention clamps, but it didn’t feel like a clamp.

The flap. Probably the scariest aspect for most people. It was so incredibly easy. A suction ring is placed on your eye to hold it still. The benefit of this is your vision greys significantly or (in my and most cases) completely blacks out. You do not see anything while the flap is being cut. I felt pressure, like someone was running a toothpick or something similar over my eye, but certainly not cutting into it. It takes about 25 seconds to perform the incision.

Then, the ring was removed and I was swiveled under the LASIK laser. Because the work is being done right at your eye, you can’t really see what specifically is happening. My vision went from unfocused and off to VERY blurry as the flap was folded back to clear the cornea for the laser. I had a somewhat unfocused dot to look at, there was some clicking and (I was warned) a smell like burning hair as the little dot got clearer and clearer. This took about 30 seconds for my right eye and 40 seconds for my left. Then the doctor folds the flap back down, smooths it out, and put a few drops in.

Rinse, repeat for the 2nd eye.

After the procedure was done, I got up and the doctor looked at my eyes to make sure everything was ducky, and then I got to head home.

Post op continuation to be posted tomorrow.